Fear 3

     I can't really say that I had all that strong of a reaction to any of my classmate's fears. Though there was one though one that did create something of an internal conflict in me. I don't remember his name (I'm terrible with names) and I can't find it in the blogs, but he wrote some secret that was important to him on a slip of paper, folded it up, left the room and had us pass it around with instructions not to open it. If I remember it correctly it was a fear of trust. Now for me that is not an issue what is, is that I have 2 things that this causes to conflict in me, 1: I have a terrible thirst for knowledge at almost any cost; and 2: I am EXTREMELY loyal; and even though I don't know him that well I still have a desire to be loyal to his wish not to open it. It took a great deal of will power to resist opening it and I passed it on as quickly as possible so I could not dwell on whether or not to open it. I knew that not know what it was would almost drive me insane later but that really doesn't matter, I was through with the conflict. Then after he came back Beth had it passed a round again, by this point the desire to know had doubled and it was much harder to not open it, I still managed to pass it by there was a voice in my head screaming to open it and yelling at for not doing so, and even though I was able to keep myself from thinking about it, not know still gnawed at the edges of my mind for a day or two.

Fear Part 1

I really have no idea how anyone will react to what I came up with, I am sure there will be a few things said and a question or 2 but that's it.


Edit: Just now after publishing the Fear Part 2 assignment I saw that this was in draft version and I never published it... well there goes 50 points... oh well...

Fear Part 2

     I really kind of struggled with this assignment, no matter how much I thought about it I couldn't find anything that I feared, so I made my project a Q&A to see if anyone in class could find one I couldn't think of.

     The interesting thing was there were several different reactions. Ranging from some who simply accepted that I don't have a fear, to some doing a good job of trying to find something that I actually feared, to one person actually attacking my idea calling it a cop-out.

     This was much more of a reaction than I expected, it was also interesting to find that some people found me to seem fairly emotionless, as my own reactions to their questions or attacks were much less spirited than those of everyone else. I had only really anticipated a few well thought out questions that might lead to a fear.

     I don't think I would change a thing, it worked out better than I had expected, generation a much larger reaction and although I didn't find a fear or really learn anything about myself, it gave a great deal of insight on my peers and what/how they think.

Roadblocks 2

I am having a really difficult time with this one... I can't really seem to put this assignment together in my head... and now I've been up for WAY too long trying to figure it out. I mean neither of my roadblock are really all that challenging for me to deal with... Its almost as if I didn't have any if I decided I didn't want to. The only thing I guess I can think of is for time... for the first sense I guess I would choose could and just play an endlessly looping midi through sound isolating headphones while trying to ignore/drown out all of my other senses. And the second sense would be taste, using something that has a taste that just won't ever seem to leave your tongue, maybe something really spicy...

Road Blocks

Well my list of road blocks was really small when I first made it... and it didn't change after my bliss assignment. The thing I keep coming to is that my one and only true road blocks are time and money. But over the course of my life I know I will have time, but money I will have to work quite a bit to get to do what I most enough for the rest of my life, then again what I enjoy can also make me money at times... SO, I really didn't get much out of this assignment other than a nice relaxing day off!

Taking a looksee!?

Hm, definitions for look and see... well I think looking at something is just a visual examination, it can be a close detailed examination or just a quick "look". But seeing, I think seeing is more of understanding what you are looking at and its meaning, not just its physical appearance. As for something for me to look at... why not something I look at all the time... my cell phone! I spend an hour or two looking at its screen every day, but I spend very little time actually looking at the phone itself. While I have taken the time before to admire the engineering behind its mechanics I have never really taken the time to look at its aesthetics or to try to understand its meaning... until now anyway. The shock case I carry it in is another thing both it and the phone have very different aesthetics, but somehow they complement each other. The phone itself is of a very sleek and minimalist design while the shock case makes it a bit more bulky, it also makes the phone easier to hang on to and hold. Both are a marvel of engineering and some people spent a lot of time designing them. I have been having a hard time finding a deeper meaning to a cell phone other than convenience, but maybe there isn't one And though I am sure there is one to the individual phones design, I am having some trouble seeing it for anything else than simply a beautiful communication tool.

Unique Homework...

After pondering my assignment for a while and thinking about stags and their antlers I came up with what I wanted to do... I decided I was going to made a wooden sculpture of a stag's antler and then dip it in molten metal. However I have been forced to put this and any other plans I've got on hold as I have spent EVERY SINGLE BLASTED DAY since class bedridden with the Flu. I haven't gotten a lick of work done, actually I haven't gotten ANYTHING done! In fact I still have a fever as I write this and if its not gone by tomorrow I probably won't be in class....... Bleh......